Haunted

 I've been struggling for so long with a perpetual feeling of wanting to cry.  All the time.  It never leaves me. 

I'm being haunted by the issues I covered with counselors last year.  What confuses me is that I have never blamed either of my parents for abandoning me, ever, not even as a child.  I thought that after I had talked it through with a counselor, I'd be able to put it all to rest.   But it's getting overwhelming.  I'm upset but I don't know why and I literally have no ill feelings against anyone. 

I'm genuinely at a loss for what to do.  I'm lost.